Rerun

I am in my beloved city of San Francisco. Both Emino and Lisa wanted me to cancel my flight and I thought about it. But after what I said about Emino, my friend Nick (and actually other friends) asked if I was alright -meaning : Do I need therapy?

My friends Nick and Kathy wanted me to stay in their beautiful Victorian and take care of their kitties. This is not the first time I've done this nor the first time that I've stayed at their house for whatever reason. I come every chance I get. I was here four times last year.

For those of you who don't know, I'm homeless and have been for two years. I left a rent control apartment, job, pension, health care for romance. I was going to move to the middle of nowhere for a guy I met while hiking. My first impression of this guy was that he was a nut case - seriously. My friend Nancy and I were at the end of our five day hiking trip in Glacier, heading out of the park the next day. Rick said he was afraid of bears and wanted to know if he could join us. Nancy and I both discussed this in the tent that night. We decided we had pepper spray and he didn't. But the next morning after only a few hours I decided I was going to move to where he lived in Wisconsin and make goat cheese.

I've always been adventureous. I use to move at the drop of a hat, as the cliche goes, until I moved to San Francisco, the most beautiful city in the world. Except for two year long trips and many two month ones, I'd been in San Francisco for over 20 years. I had been looking for an excuse to leave.

With the help of my girlfriends and former boyfriend, James, I packed all my belongings. In the middle of January, when there is the most snow, I drove to the midwest, a place I'd been planning to leave since I was in the first grade and did as soon as I was out of high school.

I didn't want to move immediately to Wisconsin because after 30 yrs on the west coast I wasn't used to the cold. I thought I'd put my stuff in my mother house near Kansas City, Missouri and go to New Zealand for two months. When I returned in the spring I'd move to Wisconsin. I kiddingly told Rick that I wanted to ease into the tundra.

The day before I left to New Zealand, Rick said all bets were off. He absolutely did not want me moving to Wisconsin. And you know what? I've had an exciting two years. I think my whole life has been excitng and even though I've had a lot of drama I wouldn't trade it anything.

Why am I telling you this? I am an adrenaline junky. I know my little affair with Emino will not last. I'm not that stupid. He has apologized over and over and begged me to come back. So guess what - I am.